Weeping Hyena / De(con)struction series

original Painting
mostly oil on thick canvas
160 X 100 cm
2020
 
(overpainting 2010)
 
This one is the first one in the De(con)struction series. 
It's the first one I made when I started painting again this year (2020).
I had the idea to overpaint, destroy,  a lot of my canvasses I made in my school years. The idea is to detach myself of all the conventions learned back then. 
-> example:  "Don't painting with black paint straight from the tube.."
 
It's also a little bit about rebirth, and letting go of things. 
 
I always had a hard time selling my paintings, because it's like selling little parts of myself. 
 
The destruction-construction theme is the basic theme of my all -over creative practice since my younger years. Always struggling in between the construction of a drawing or a painting and the destruction of it. It's also a very personal battle I fight in every day life. In my head I'm always going back and forth in between construction and destruction of life itself and trying to find a balance that is actually liveable in between.