Weeping Hyena / De(con)struction series

original Painting
 mostly oil on thick canvas
 160 X 100 cm
 2020
 (overpainting 2010)
 This one is the first one in the De(con)struction series.
 It's the first one I made when I started painting again this year (2020).
 I had the idea to overpaint, destroy, a lot of my canvases I made in my school years. The idea is to detach myself from all the conventions learned back then.
 -> example: "Don't paint with black paint straight from the tube.."
 It's also a little bit about rebirth, and letting go of things.
 I always had a hard time selling my paintings, because it's like selling little parts of myself.
 The destruction-construction theme is the basic theme of my all-over creative practice since my younger years. Always struggling in between the construction of a drawing or a painting and the destruction of it. It's also a very personal battle I fight in every day life. In my head I'm always going back and forth in between construction and destruction of life itself and trying to find a balance that is actually liveable in between.